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love comes vengeance

Sunday, April 26, 2009

i am ever cut

ripped all the way to my heart

you killed me

you haunt me so

when this will ever end...

those memories

where you and me

were happier

and you'd called me your honey bee...

i just hate you

i hate you

you break my heart

oh this vengeance is taking me nowhere...

this void is all over me

eating me alive from within my heart

you found another one

i am left all alone

this mixed feelings

uncertain

but i'm dead screaming

screaming all out inside

that i somehow feel drown inside myself

drowning for you

you who's not worth it!

oh i hate you

i hate you

all the things you've done

you killed me alive

you ripped me raw

you saddened me immortally

i wish that you're dead

better than seeing you around

with somebody else than me!

this hatred grown out of the love i had for you

it just putting me down

dragging me to the terror of vengeance

but i am done

i prefer to see myself dead

rather than having you haunting me

for the rest of my life!

Labels: poem

sincerely ♥EnAid♥ @22:56 | 0 blinked pill(s)

i hate adabarze

Saturday, April 25, 2009

i'd never know what's novacaine. but if i'm ever given a chance to swallow one, i'd definitely take that chance. this thing i think i mixed up with love, i just getting tired of it. i'm tired of waiting. i'm tired being jealous. i'm tired for him to notice me. when is it going to be over. i just can't hold on to it anymore. love is pain. i just want him to feel how i feel all this while. i just want him to notice that i am the only one who'd love him, understand him more than anyone, more than his birth relatives. i just hate him. i hate him. i hate him. I HATE ADAB-ARZE!!!

sincerely ♥EnAid♥ @22:02 | 0 blinked pill(s)

want

Thursday, April 23, 2009

i'm just wishing that he sees me again. i want him to know how i feel for him. just once and i want him to understand. and tell me, why he'd left me then...

sincerely ♥EnAid♥ @19:06 | 0 blinked pill(s)

painful

typical human nature. we always put ourself in a reckless situation. as for me, i always been around people who'd hurt me. always yearn for someone that's not worth it. or maybe i was just being curious. why'd he left me. why not without a word. sometimes i know what the answer might be, and just sometimes i refused to think about it - only being curious all the time, why'd he left without a word. what have i've done wrong. it's a painful thoughts and tiring drying me off my blood for love deep inside that i'd stop - but for awhile. just when he appear, i'll flashed back to that time. why. the irony is that i don't even have the courage to ask him. because he once, reject me. without a reason. yes, perhaps i know the answer, but its just that i'm not getting enough with my thought. i need to hear it from him. but absolutely not when i ask him. i don't want a tense situation because i know it'll put me in an awkward scenario. oh just i hate it that i have a very complicated mind... this ego is so all over myself. just to get that simple answer, i surrender to my ego.

Labels: first love

sincerely ♥EnAid♥ @13:28 | 0 blinked pill(s)

grieving over him

days passed by and each day i'll be grieving over him. it's such a waste. and it's painful, indeed. i can't get over him since he's my first love and i can't get it why he'd left without saying goodbye. i meant, isn't it a perfect reason to just get over him...

Labels: grieve

sincerely ♥EnAid♥ @12:58 | 0 blinked pill(s)

fall apart

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

i'm falling apart. i just saw him flirt with a girl cyberly, just like the way he asked me to be his hunny bunny along time ago. and that's a big heartbreaking indeed.

now i know, i will never get a perfect person like him anymore.

but i don't get it. being a jerk he is i still yearn for him. i should've forget him for what he've done to me before. he left me without saying goodbye. what does that really mean? i hate that everytime i log on to that social website, the one that i attached to all this time, being loyal i am, i can't resist the urge of me to check up his news. i hate it. i hate myself.

once, then. i was browsing through the friendster then came stumbled on his profile. i tried to add him but seems like he rejected mine. am i that disgust to him? is that what's it all about? outter beauty? i hate him. i hate himself.

only a new man will cure this pain. but when will there be a new person? sometimes it's just unbearable, it's pain, like a cancer growing inside of me - my deepest bottom of my heart. i hate it. i hate itself!

Labels: boyfriend, feeling, first love, incomplete, moody, soulmate

sincerely ♥EnAid♥ @22:25 | 0 blinked pill(s)