i'm falling apart. i just saw him flirt with a girl cyberly, just like the way he asked me to be his hunny bunny along time ago. and that's a big heartbreaking indeed.
now i know, i will never get a perfect person like him anymore.
but i don't get it. being a jerk he is i still yearn for him. i should've forget him for what he've done to me before. he left me without saying goodbye. what does that really mean? i hate that everytime i log on to that social website, the one that i attached to all this time, being loyal i am, i can't resist the urge of me to check up his news. i hate it. i hate myself.
once, then. i was browsing through the friendster then came stumbled on his profile. i tried to add him but seems like he rejected mine. am i that disgust to him? is that what's it all about? outter beauty? i hate him. i hate himself.
only a new man will cure this pain. but when will there be a new person? sometimes it's just unbearable, it's pain, like a cancer growing inside of me - my deepest bottom of my heart. i hate it. i hate itself!
Labels: boyfriend, feeling, first love, incomplete, moody, soulmate
sincerely ♥EnAid♥ @22:25 |
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